I had this (I have this) problem where I completely unplug socially, cold turkey, coitus interruptus. Things could be running smoothly, everything appearing normal and then I just shut down. It could last a day, to a few months of just fucking everyone off. I’m usually sloshing around in some strange grey area of optimistic misanthropy, but when it clicks, it’s just nothing but hate. The weirdest part about it is that I’ve always called it “reclusive/seclusive” as if it’s some sort of difficulty level. It’s pretty fucked up of me to push people away and close myself off to them at a whim, but at the same time…sometimes I just can’t stand “people” as a whole. I can’t handle the interactions, the stimulation. I’d like to tell a lot of people to fuck off, but I won’t because I still care about them. I’d like to drown right now, but I can’t find the right sounds.
You aren’t the only one. I once went four months without talking to the vast majority of people I know and am friends with. I would only socialize to a bare minimum with the people I lived with, because frankly, I had to deal with them anyway. I’ve gotten a lot better about it considering how bad it used to be, but there are some days where I just cannot stand the sound of anyone’s voice and would rather sit around by myself not doing anything particular at all.
I feel as though there must be a more mature way of going about it, but fuck that. Everyone needs a people break some time.
There is no “mature” way of going about it. I’m the exact same way. Social interaction becomes extremely exhausting as well as nauseating. I feel i’m coming to that point soon, which makes sense with the new year and all. All I can say is I hope it doesn’t last too long, I dont want to be fucked off completely.
